好久没写了
今天生日就写一篇了
谢谢所有祝福我的人, 从以前几百个人剩下最后几个, 其实都是最重要的朋友了

Also thanks to Ahyun, Carmen and Yanling for the advanced birthday dinner, Carmen's surprise and gifts, Alyssa's car and petrol and Yanling for being there although she has her difficulty, Lingmei is just working so that she couldn't attend. Appreciate all the efforts, and this could be our last gathering for another one or two years as Alyssa is going to Uk soon... It will be getting harder to gather.




To me, family always comes first, I don't mind not going out for celebration every year because it is really difficult to go out on the valentines day as we all know and I have a brother of anti-valentines day hahah. Tbh, I'd rather stay home and watch tv like a normal day. (But I still get presents and cakes from the Tays every year. <3)

Thank you for wishes from all over the world, and people I lost contact with I'm sorry I promise I'll remember the birthday of everyone of you /.\

The longest message always come from Zhe wei; Melvin, Max and Yian Chun never forgot my birthday, surprisingly I received wishes from Tse Neng every year too

And thanks Bi for the dinner and flower <3



It will be a year with laughter and tears, expectation and disappointment.
 It will not be the happiest days, it will have a lot of goodbyes, but I believe I'll get it through.
  Everyday must be a struggle for somebody, but you just have to suck it up
   And I am still grateful that I wake up every morning, because I was given another chance 🌸

电脑的battery在fading了啊啊啊啊
新买的时候还很开心因为它的battery可以耐很久, 然后我现在又没有charger -,-


Okay this post is meant for the uk trip...but I'm just too lazy for this ugh. This gonna be a longggg post.
So like, first day - Manchester 
Then brother came to airport to pick us up ( which is pretty necessary )
then we had lunch at a dim sum place,
checked in hotel, then go walk around at Picadilly's garden which is what we always do when we are in Mchst cus like apparently there's nothing else to do. 
Then we went for dinner at Friday's. God knows why he brought us to Friday's. zzz






Day 2 - LE GRADUATION 
The main point of coming to uk hmm. okay it was boring and Im sick of seeing my brother's shitty face all the time ( not all the time technically, he was with the friends and left us aside, even after the graduation...the photo taking time) . 
Can tell like the parents are pretty upset but they knew his attitude not gonna be any better so... Am I the only one being sad here?
Then we had a luxury dinner at Gaucho which wasn't so good either, despite the fact of the prices are like, my whole month's expenses, and he just wasted the money like blahblahblah.




So, Day 3 woohoo we are going to Scotland! 
The schedule was, my brother will be at out lobby at 10.30am
OKAY so 10.45, 11am . No one turned up so my dad got pissed and we decided to go to his dorm to look for him as we all knew that he is definitely sleeping in his bed right now. 
When we arrived at his dorm, the intercom wasn't working. SO the parents who gave birth to him, raised him, supported him to finish his Uni for 23years, waited there in the wind until the receptionist were willing to go look for him.... Ill just stop here...

Day  4 -Edinburgh
The only thing I have to say is this is a really lovely country!
Nice people nice weather ( chilly during summer) nice scenery 
Again, Not gonna talk about the family fights, but ill conclude it in a sentence- my brother is a ****, douchebag.

Day 5
Met Nertobor. So coincidentally he was there and I was there. The funny thing is we only met up once in Malaysia, but twice in foreign country. blah it was an awkward night, but less awkward compared to Melbourne, as you could imagine how bad it was.... hahah ohwells.
And it was their anniversary that day, I was a lil discomfort as I felt it was really wrong, but i swear i didn't know about it TT
Then like had a few talks, which at least I personally would never tell him about :/ . This is a bad example of drinking with him 

Day 6 - leaving to London to see my babehhhhhh
Met Huiling. We went shopping and dinner and i bought her maggi across half of the world but it didn't reach her hand because I left in my handbag and only realised when I got back to hotel.
Everything was just the same. A little different was only where we were. Luckily we could still talk after so long, tho not like un-continuously, which make more sense because we hadn't seen each other for like, years, perhaps. But yeah, thats why, updating was the point. 

Day 7
Huiling again, because have to pass her the maggi pack HAHA. and she had dinner with my family and she felt alright. She gets along with my family really well! :D

Day 8 - Back to Mchst
Back here to get the luggages.

Day 9 - Off to Singapore 

Wanted to post something long ago, cause' this blog is drying up.
But like really don't know to write, always have something that pop up in mind but it doesn't really worth one post, it's like maybe just a few sentence or like a feeling, and i really like long posts... so yea lol. 

Have changed so many habits, that almost becoming uncountable and like changed a lot, i admit 
But like people just have to fit in i guess, how the people around you kind of define you but not exactly, you can still have your own way of doing things, but like i don't know, it just somehow changes a person in many manners. 
Btw, i'm listening to Tove Lo's Habit now while writing this post, still liking it tho hehe

Nothing really happened so like can't really update friends about it. People think i don't really tell true feelings, but only apparent things,  but thats how I protect myself.
I do tell, but the ones are not with me now so yea, miss the high school time when you see your best friends every single day and tell them every single thing so you don't get depression inside. 
But i prefer talking to real person, don't really like skyping and stuff, it's so weird talking to the computer and like when i see my own face it's like okay this is the right angle, but recently i noticed that our face is actually enlarged in the other side so like super ugly.....bla bla bla.

New semester just started, here goes my second uni year like woohoo Im not excited i wanna go home. Such contradicting with my last post cause' like i wrote i don't feel like going back but now i wanna go back (?) . 

I realised the longer you stay away from home the more bonded with them you get...some people get homesick like cray, i don't, i just like how warm the family feeling is. And how much money you can spend without converting currency hahah.

Cousin stayed at my place for almost one week, because the uncle didn't like him so he couldn't stay at aunty's place anymore. I brought him to Pius's birthday party and he got drunk and being loud... And then Fish gets mad and asked me to ask him to move.
But the thing is the day before we left Singapore he told my mom getting drunk and do stupid stuff is embarrassing but like, he just did it... I feel sorry and bad for him that i didn't stop him from drinking at first, but oh wells, my friends say they he'll still get drunk another day, or even worse when without me being around to take care of him.

I wonder how the alcohol works tho, it makes people walk, talk when they thought they were sleeping. It's scary how it reacts in someone, and make them do things that they will never do while conscious... And like guys, never drink drive. Or actually, just try don't the get yourself drunk :/

Apparently chkl's reputation has been going down... so many post i saw about it tho. Not sure what to feel about it hahah. 

Alrighty, trying to get my shits together and start working on Immunology and Microbiology shits :p

I have been a little isolated myself from relationship stuff for quite a while