Hello.

I'm back to talking to myself now.

I have graduated, from UQ. This year has been more than difficult, it was absolutely suffocating.
It was all down down down, and down. The betters were just a day without events.

I did my research at PEF. It was stressful, I have developed depression from it.
I cried, I wanted to run. I even had suicidal idealism.
- But everything was much easier when I see him. -

The program finished, I decided to come back to Singapore to be with my family.
I have definitely questioned my own decision, I do not have my own room in here nor a bed.
My mum had to buy a new wardrobe so I have a personal space, which is all I have.
But I do not regret, my family is giving me so much.
All I can return is my company.

But he gave up.
He questioned the need of my non-existing existence by his side all the way across the globe. A hardship every relationship faces.
Trust, time, company, commitment //
He's pointed a few things about it.
1. Incompetency - he isn't my ideal type and probably will never be. He cannot promise me what I want, which will make me more upset.
2. Distance
3. Future - when is the next time he is going to see me? Where will we be after this?

I could have so many arguments to carry out, but I don't think any words can describe the feeling of knowing someone is contemplating to crush what you have appreciated so much?

The moment I gave my trust I did think that these seeking and adapting could stop.

Guess it's another beginning now.